Stereotypical

  How can my life be so perfect and so shitty at the same time? I mean my friends are great, I have a boyfriend that I love, I have a great dad. Yet, My mom is evil, my sister is.... a completely different story, I'm stuck in class with my arch Nemesis, I'm drowning in my friends' issues, and my family never wants to got to anything I do. So I'm a whiny teen from California who feels well alone, what else is new right. Even that last sentence was cliche. At least I'm honest about my being unoriginal. People say I have everything going for me, but that's just what people say to you to keep you from sticking your head in the oven isn't it? I can get a solo or play the perfect fricking minuet on the bass, I can sing every note in a song I've never sung before and no one will see it. No, I've never been beaten by a boyfriend or my parents. Both my parents are alive, divorced, but I know where they are. Yeah I have a nook and a smart phone, I have my own room and an older sister. I don't cut and I get semi decent grades. I have things people would love to have, and I'm complaining that my life is shit. I get it If you are a kid whose dad ran and your moms dead or the other way around, you don't think I have a right to bitch. For you my life is easy, and that is because you've seen lower, darker places. I haven't. For me I am literally in Hell. This is Hell for me. So you look at that kid complaining about his parents getting divorced or being an only child, and you say "you can't  complain," and then you list a few things that  make your life worse. Guess what, you just made him feel awful and now he's going to go home and do something stupid because he can't even vent about the lowest place he has ever been in life. I don't get to vent or cry because people see me as strong and collected, I am far from. So this is my Hell and I want free from it. If you want free from your personal Hell, quit pushing me further into mine.