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So my mom came home pissy as hell and breaks a plate. I dont care how bad your day was! When you lash out at me you can blow it out your ass. I pretty much get this on a daily basis. But this time it's different my dads mad at me too. That is really weird, because he is NEVER mad at me. My best friend is pretty much telling me that she thinks I'm her bitch and can kiss her ass. Why things have gotten this bad, I will never know. I spend all my life making sure everyone else is happy. Now the one time I am happy I get turned on faster then a bleeding fish at a shark convention! So what the hell is there left for me to do then die a depressed life alone so every one else can be happy.

My Not So Stupid Life

 I met a boy. Okay, not just any boy, THE boy.  He is for a lack of fitting words Adorkable. He even asked before he kissed me. I had the best time! This boy is so sweet, he couldn't keep his eyes or lips for that matter off of me. SCORE. The movie was amazing. Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol was great. If there was a Win scale there were 235 wins in general. I counted. He thought it was HILRIOUS. So I'm bragging about my date. Sorry, but  it was my first date, sue me.  we have a song now. We ended up making out to My Immortal by Evenesence, so now our song. He doesn't believe he's perfect, but he is. At one point at the end I said "I see the perfect person infront of me." He looked around and kept asking where but then I kissed him and said " don't you know what right in front of me means?". So yeah thats how  that ended up.  Come back or don't honestly I don't care. Bye ya'll.

Tradition

I have come to terms with a new tradition of mine. It seems that I only write on this blog when I'm in the schools computer lab. Does that add procrastinator to my list of words describing my self. Does this mean that said list is now pessimistic, precocious, narcissistic procrastinator? That title is a lot for one to say let alone digest. Any way, I am allowing myself to fall in to a destructive pattern that i do not intend on correcting. I will never go so far as to say that I'm the Charlie Sheen of the literary world, but I am a warlock from Mars. I am a total fricken rock star with tiger's blood in my veins. We love you, Charlie.  Yet again I find myself falling from my topic. This new tradition is one I chose to share with you, because of course I am in the computer lab typing on my narrcissistic blog. If you have any comments write them below so I can personally tell you to BITE ME.

Sometimes

 This life I lead gets better sometimes. Sometimes I see a glimmer of light, then it's ripped away. thats all I have to say, all I have to say TODAY.

Guess where I am??

I found out who my friends are. I had two friends I trusted and told almost everything. Today after a seminar that brought up some crap that I  tried so hard to suppress. No one actually came up to me to ask if I was okay, except one person. The two girls I thought were my friends I had to tell I was depressed. I even had to tell my friends that I've had since kindergarten that I was upset. I won't even get into details about what the hell kind of bad things I've had happen to me in my 15 years on Earth. That one person I know and even think of as a friend that asked if I was alright was Jordan. This is the only time I will ever mention a name on my blog. So now I know who I can trust.

Oh and I'm at the computer lab!

AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AGAIN I'm in the computer lab, but this time I'm sopposed to be doing research on rocks! ENTERTAINING RIGHT??!!! Ya I didn't think so either. LOL

Volcano

Right now I'm supposed to be doing research on a volcano that I honestly don't care about.  Because of this I am terribly bored! I have a crush on a 17 year old and no one reads my blog! I've learned that nothing ever really ends well for me. I than began helping a girl A LOT like me out of the same rut that I'm still stuck in. Well to my nonexistant readers, what would you do if you were me?